标题：内心的挣扎与渴望宁静

章节概要：无（本文为一段内心独白，无明显章节划分）

详细内容：

I've been doing what they tell me. I've been trying to meditate, but it didn't really help me. And I haven't got the patience. Even took up yoga. Adrenaline my thoughts. You should see my diary because it goes on for pages. But when the lights go down and I'm all alone, all the fears come out just as the unknown. It's a mishmash I can't navigate. It's a heavy flood and someone broke the gate. I wish it was quiet. Yeah, I'm Rapunzel stuck inside my head. No peace in my mind, it goes on and on. Wish I could turn it off and it would shine on. Oh, small mama shut up. And I wish my mother shut up. I'm a long swing of a shadow. I'm a big... (此处原句存在表述重复冗长的问题，简化为I'm a big mess). I wish I was quiet, I overthink too much. Yeah, I'm a puzzle stuck inside my head. One piece in my mind, it goes on and on. Wish I could turn it off and it would shut up. I wish my mind would shut up. I wish my mind would shut up. I wish my mom would shut up. So far.

总结：这段文字主要表达了作者内心的挣扎与混乱，尝试通过冥想、瑜伽等方式寻找内心宁静却未成功，在独处时各种恐惧涌现，感觉自己的思绪如同洪水般无法控制，同时希望自己内心能安静下来，也表达出对母亲的一种厌烦情绪，整体呈现出一种渴望内心宁静却难以实现的状态。